Not meant to be

Its been a while since I last updated. Quite some stuff have changed already actually.. well i guess thats life.. All good things must come to an end ba.. and dreams should just remain as well, dreams.. and sometimes sincerity and being nice just isnt enough.. not meant to be ba.. oh well..

Ok I am a lil emotional right now actually. so i welcome all gestures to hang out, chill, lobo, talk cock, yada yada.. but time still passes right, being emo isnt an excuse to stop living yar?

So.. here are my resolutions for 2009. Well honestly i dont have a habit of keeping to them in the 20 odd years of my existence.. so for once.. my first resolution would be to fulfil all of 2009's resolutions..

1) Stop feeling sorry for myself, I have done whatever I must, put in whatever I could, its time to learn to put it down and let it go..

2) All my races, but most importantly Singapore Bi and 1/2 Ironman. Multi discipline endurance sports has always been a dream. Its only now that I truely dared to chase them. This is the time, now. Bintan Singapore Pangerrang stdchart and ultimately Langkawi.. it all hinges on the feeling after 70.3. so please.. lemme do well.

3) Secure a job. Any job actually, now that the market is so bad.. Alternatively, go for an overseas placement. Work 1-2years in community development overseas. Perhaps a change in environment would be good, and hopefully I leave some baggage behind.. I don mind Kenya, Africa Nepal China East Europe, even SEA Cambodia or Vietnam. Anywhere but here in Sgp..

I have realised my life's pretty screwed up actually.. I mean it started pretty well.. From RedSwastika to Dunman High. Then it went downhill all from there. VJ was disastrous. Army only so-so. NTU cui. Results cmi, CCA also ppl don want, Emomomo stuff also cui, is there a reset or clear all button?? no , i guess as much..

Stop lobo-ing, start working. Get my ass cracking.

This year is the year. Lets kickstart it from here.

Likely that all this is just the emotions gone bonkers right now.. but still, one will hafta try somehow eh?

Usher in the new life.. here. now.

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