Have you AFI today?

The reason why its called the core is due to that fact that it is core. Geddit?

I reckon so;)

Its ok. Better that I understand than u do. Realised to my chagrin recently that mrduahjiad's viewership has been higher than expected.

Does that mean I should be more guarded in the stuff I write here? A politically correct answer would have been along the lines of "probably, hope I am not stepping on the fabled toes of anyone"

An answer more attuned to myself would be "yeah, so? Kiss my arse"

Apologies. I have digressed.

As I was saying, core represents something that's essential for the functioning of a process. In physical sporting terms, that would refer to your chest, torso and back (imagine Barbie, pop the head, remove the limbs, u get the idea). Well, something along that lines. Having a strong core breeds efficiency, which translates to less fatique and longer mileage.

After an ET run today, I did some core training. Here are some stuff I realised, to much pain and agony:

Underneath that thick layer of blubber, I do have abs. Its not like I can SEE them, but rather, the dull throbbing do indicate their presence, don't they?

I like pain. While this is definitely not a runner's high (core-er's high? exerciser's high? whatever that is), I felt great after exerting myself. There's this masochistic trait in me that pushes me on, even when my rational mind tells me that im probably gonna be crippled tmr.

I regretted badly on letting myself get outta shape.. very, very badly. I missed the efficiency in the past. Not that it was very efficient then, but the present state is a joke comparatively, haha.

I have had no consistency. Train for a certain period, slacked. Trained again, slacked again. On top of being wasteful of resources, it is also demoralising at times. And oh the pain of seeing the promises you made to yourself go broken YET again. Reflecting, trying to compensate, and failing AGAIN. The self-fulfilling prophecy, *&%#.

On a separate note, I need to start feeling alive and happy in the things I do. Its been rather draining the past few months. There's some baggage I needa offload, emotional and otherwise. Hope that I am finally moving in the right direction.

I digressed AGAIN, &*$#@%.


Be absolutely destroyed. And feel good about it;)
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