Seriously..

Am I serious about this thing?
To be honest, I dont have a very good track record of following every idea to the very end.

Even things on what I wanna do, stuff I wanna pursue, of the millions of stuff in my head, about 10 percent is articulated to the goons who know me. And of that 10 percent, perhaps only another 10 percent is pushed to physical realisation. And of that, a final meagre 10 percent is followed through to the very end.

But...

This is really something I wana do. More importantly, this feels like something I would derive great joy and enjoyment in doing, and is able to garner a sustained effort doing it.

Also, by some divine stroke of luck or intervention, the idea just evolved further into greater clarity. Its not a 'woooh, this looks cool' moment of impulse, or a 'I am envious' moment of jealousy, much less a 'I must be like him' knee-jerk reaction. In fact, this seemingly ludicrous, yet so simple idea is a culmination of various considerations, factors, repeated refining and constant questioning reflective sessions put together..

The amount of effort, research and time tells me this is something I should SERIOUSLY consider. The career-plunging, showhand, a-few-years-of-my-life, a sizeable-portion-of-my-pocket kind of serious.

No. This is not a knee-jerk reaction nor a 3min fervour thing.

Muay-thai, dance, cable-ski, blading, sailing, climbing, mountaineering, bball yada yada, these are hobbies, interests, fun. Did I pursue? Some yes, many no. Alot of it is just day-dreaming though. Even the eee-eee-orh-orh cant be considered a full follow through. Afterall, that isn't my full potential or half of what I am capable of, no?

This is different.

This, in my mind, has a beginning, and an end. A point where the dream starts, the full physical realisation of it, signposts along the way, and the final benchmark where it will be judged upon.

I WILL draw up a plan for it. A sustainable full-sized graphical research paper on black and white, just for it. Consult profs, seniors, mentors etc on it.



Quite farking positive I wana do this.



You goons will be invited to shoot holes, criticise, whack, comment etc on it after I am done. For now though, I am holding the cards dear to myself.






**Goons in this instance refer to anyone with a vested interest in how I am doing, be it just for coffee-table gossip or otherwise. Whether I know you from RSS, DHS, SAF or anyhow anywhere, you are refered henceforth in this article as goons.

Of course, some of you are more goons than the others.

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