change

I need to learn to say no more often.
I need to be more decisive.
I need to get organised.
I need to stay on the ORIGINAL course of action, and COMPLETE IT.
I need to be less frustrated, less irritated, for I am at times, more irritating and frustrating than others.
I need to be more punctual and manage my time better.
I need to be more selfish, and more generous at times too.
I need to care less, and think more.

I need to change.

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No more excuses..!

After tomorrow, I will officially cease to be a student..

No more 'I am just a student'
No more submissions past deadlines
No more feigning ignorance
No more pushing of responsibilities
NO MORE EXCUSES

On a related note, it is heartening and at the same time, demoralising to see that some of your peers become so darn successful in their endeavours. Of course, the recognition of hardwork and efforts must not be denied. They, well, most of them, do deserve the compliments.

All the sweat, late hours, ridiculous efforts, culminating in the moment of recognition,glory and success.

While being happy for them, I cant help feeling this..
"its not you cant, its you didn't"

Time to carve out my own success man.
No more excuses..

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And I am hopeful..

The place seem nice enough.

From what I saw, it feels almost family..

The queer quirks of everyone, the greetings of a randomly passing-by instructor, the cash-means-nothing-food-is-gold, the numerous smiles and positive vibes, feedback from guys who joined just a few months back, the friendly chatter from HR and TD side, the seemingly genuine pictures painted by the staff...

How taxing it might get during high key, the long hours, late nights, lifeless days outfield, how interesting the staff trips are, enforced breaks, how the programs are structured, how you can feel that fun is almost an integral part of its operations as hardwork is..

The little orientation into the office gave a glimpse of the culture etc.. tables are messy, workarea customised personally, pantry contributions by everyone, no food left put money into piggy bank, gears and stuff thrown all over the place, organised chaos, the kind of feeling you get when you are home.

It sure feels like home, like one big family, well not entirely family yet. More accurately, you know the feeling that u get when u go visit your friend's place? where their parents siblings etc welcome you in heartily? The warm fuzzy feeling?

I was wrong once. And for that, I remained guarded. I can only hope that, these people turn out what they seem, that behind all the smiles and friendly faces, lie hearts that are as genuine and approachable..

The signs are good. And I am hopeful:)

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Define 'Family'

Family.

A word too often misconstrued.

Symbolism of a relationship not always by blood, nor race, gender, caste, hierarchy and all that crap, but by feelings towards one another..


Family is when you slam the table, let loose a verbal warfare, dig out long-forgotten misgivings, and start cursing, thinking but never truly wishing terrible things upon one another.. and an hour later.. mummy brings in a washed cooling china pear, literally erasing any traces of malevolence in the air..

Wahahahahaha..!

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Do you have someone watching over you?

Do you have days where you feel as if someone's watching over you? You woke up excited and looking forward to the day, things went your way, disaster averted (twice), a few close shave, pleasant encounters and happenings after one another..!

You feel as if you are extremely blessed, everything seems so 顺心如意, so fortunate, so lucky!!

A really big thank you for watching out for me, for making my day and making me smile:)

In life

Life for me started out pretty well..
Why has it come to this?
Did I peak too early?
Is this the best I can do?
Am I destined for a life of mediocrity?

I can do better, much much better.
I don't want anymore what ifs.
I don't want to live a life of unfulfilled potential.
I don't want feelings of could-have-done-better.
I don't want anymore regrets.

Success came early.
It went early too.

I need to arrest the slide.
Now's the time to put it right.

This farked up attitude needs changing.
I need to get competitive, with myself.
I need to get uncomfortable, to challenge myself.

I am going to get better. In life.

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IM Tiongkok

Ok Bang (Weichern),
Unlike dua pao xian (Hongwei), I settled the 1/2 liao.
And btw he still owes us a darn big meal..

In reference to your chatterbox post (see right column of blog)
And also our msn convo the other day,

Lets do IM Tiongkok next year!!

http://ironmanchina.com/

And btw, to a certain Mr Lim Zeyan, whom I know browses this blog rather frequently..

eh next year wan pia pride not??
I say YOU CANT DO IT.

wah si li wah buay lun
BRING ON THE EGO MAN

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